I Whispered "Help" and He Came In...
By LuWanna Jennings
I came to fully know that Jesus saves while in a crack house.
I had spent many years trying to escape from all the abuse I had suffered from the age of 4 until 39 and all hope and had no inclination as to why I was even alive. I thought it best that I should commit suicide; I felt I could not be saved and that God hated me.
By age four I could read current events in the newspaper; while kids watched the cartoons, I watched the news. I realized by age 7 that I had a love for restoring and loving people back to life. By age 7, I also felt all adults were dumb, because the adults I knew were either allowing people to rape or molest me or they were the perpetrator.
I gave my life to Jesus as age 7, and I knew I did not belong to this world. By 13 I learned to escape the horrors by using drugs and alcohol. I became homeless by 13 as well. After several months my aunt took me in and being stalked by the molester, still I was afraid to go to school. Thereafter my uncle began molesting me and I became homeless again and could no longer attend church because he went to my church.
I grew into an adult, had three girls and thought I was fine until crack took over my life and I could no longer function; in and out of jail, but seeking help; no help came I felt I was not worthy of being helped. Until one day in a crack house, I heard a voice telling me to pray. No one in the place but me, but the voice spoke again, “Pray”. I realized it was the Lord, I told Him I was too filthy to pray. I slid to the floor, He said just whisper “Help” and I will come rushing in. I whispered help and my life has not been the same again.
I found out Jesus died so I could go to heaven but also that I could live a full, purposeful and loving life here on earth. He is the great escape.
I am now a minister, and a student at Ivy Tech w/ a 3.75 GPA, a facilitator of a Women's Support Group that meets once a week, and I am a torchbearer for the United Way.
Sometimes it is hard living for the Lord, but I will not leave Him for anything nor anyone. God has been more to me in these few years than anyone or anything else. If you are hurting and are living to die, why not die to live; if He did it for me after 27 years of self-destruction and pain, He will do it for you.
I have the support of my family and my church family, a host of loving and encouraging people God has placed around me to help me continue on this journey.
To God be the Glory for what He did through His Son Jesus Christ.
